From Hui Juan:
Have been in CG ministry as a CGL for 2 years, was just reflecting back on my ministry and here are some thoughts which i think i could just share with you guys =)
Being a CGL for 2 years is long enough to observed that God indeed works according to a pattern. apart of the pattern of sowing, waiting and reaping, God also transformed us to be more Christ-like according to a pattern. For me, i observed that everytime when i began to change myself in my personal life, God will start to change my ministry.
The previous time that i remembered when the CG had a remarkable growth, it was also the time when God break me of my own pride and stubborness. i still remembered how broken i was when i was being confronted by God about my own pride and how i was living in my self-deception all these while. I stil remember how God woke me up with Eph 5:14:
“ Awake, you who sleep,
Arise from the dead,
And Christ will give you light.”i felt that i was given a tight slap by God and how i broke down and cried so badly that night and repented of my pride and stubborness.this verse really served as a wake up call for me that it is really time to wake up from my sleep, from my own world where no one can speak into my life. in another verse it says
"But all things that are exposed are made manifest by the light, for whatever makes manifest is light"it is really there and then that i realised the only way to break my stubborness was to admit it and allow the light of others to come and expose what is dark and corrupted on the inside of me. When i began to be opened to the opinions and discipleship of the people ard me, and of cz to God the Holy Spirit Himself, i began to see a great change in the cg. more new friends joining the grp etc.. i believe it is not just mere coincidence but it is really true that the members cant rise above what the leader has not went tru. Once i have broken through in my personal life (albeit different areas), the CG broke through!
so my question to you is:
1. What are the areas that you need to break through in order for the people ard you to also experience their very own breakthrough? (esp for the cgcs who are undertaking mem n frns in ur grp)
2. if you have identify the areas needing breakthroughs, how willing are you to exposed this area to the people ard you for them to speak into this area?
ok so that was my 1st real personal breakthrough as a CGL abt a yr ago, until recently i begin to realise that i need another breakthrough one more time! and that is in the area of love. even as a CGL, sometimes it can be quite hard to be loving, esp if you meet ple who are reali "
LOST sheep". it takes patience and a BIG heart to contain all the mem n frns in the CG. i realised that my love tank was running low and not being able to minister to the people with real God's love and it seems that ministry turns out to be a routine. i know that is very wrong so i decided to really seek God and ask Him to really come and soften my heart once again to feel what the people are feeling, to go through what that they are gg through, and to share the cries and joy. so my daily prayers i only pray that God can really come and do an enlargement in my heart and fill it with the people He wants to add to me.
Again, not accidentally, the CG began to grow! fr an ave attd of 14 ple for svc, we have a consistent ave svc attd of 20 for the mth of July! Praise the Lord! and with every new frn tht came, it is not just an additional number to me. when i met them up, i would feel the urge to minister to them and just pour out God's love into their lives! i just cant wait to share with them how much God loves them!
i know that this is more than just another coincidence, this is a
PATTERN! i know that when i STOP saying abt the things that need to be changed ard me and START to change myself 1st, eventually God will just change the things ard me! God is a true God who honors His word and His word never fails, that is why He always works according to a pattern in our lives!
so another question to you is:
1. Have you observed a certain pattern that God works for your life?
2. Or have u observed a negative pattern that always bring you around and around like a poverty cycle in your life?
Your life is a pattern. it depends on how you want to patterned your life, according to God's or your own.
Until you are willing to break out from your own pattern into God's pattern, you will never be able to experience the fullness that God has ordained for you! you will then not live a maximised Christian life and it is even worse to live a lukewarm Christian life cz you think you have it but actually you dun have it!
WHAT IS YOUR PATTERN TODAY?
